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Pride and Protest: LGBTQ Pride Meets Black Lives Matter (June 28, 2020)
COMMENTARY: The Queer Liberation March for Black Lives and Against Police Brutality took place this past weekend and was a spirited,...
Jul 1, 20205 min read


For Dougie
STORY: I grew up in a family of “eccentrics.” I’m a direct result of their quirks and quips, attenuated somewhat by the many years I...
Jul 1, 202010 min read


Black Lives Matter – Why We March
COMMENTARY: As we approach the 2020 LGBTQ Pride commemoration on Sunday, the focus in most locations will be on supporting the Black...
Jul 1, 20202 min read


Comparing the AIDS Crisis to COVID-19: AIDS Veterans Weigh-in
COMMENTARY: BAMMER hosted its first Zoom webcast “Reflections on the AIDS Crisis in the Age of COVID-19” on Saturday evening, May 9th,...
May 19, 20201 min read


Self-Acceptance and a Queer Life in India
STORY: My name is Rahul. I was born in a small town in Tripura state in North-Eastern India where I spent my first 18 years. My earliest...
May 3, 20203 min read


Looking Back at AIDS During the Time of COVID
STORY: I listened with interest to the online discussion Reflections on the AIDS Crisis in the Time of COVID-19 hosted by BAMMER on May...
Mar 19, 20204 min read


Looking Back
STORY: Two recent developments refocused my attention on all the friends I lost to AIDS in the 80s and 90s. Recently, Peter Gorobetz, a...
Mar 1, 20202 min read


What “Ordinary People” Thought About Gays – 200 Years Ago
COMMENTARY: We can change the past by what we choose to remember. Too often historical narrative is controlled by the status quo, those...
Feb 10, 20201 min read


BAMMER and Me: Jacob Tobia, A Coming-of-Age Gender Story
PODCAST—EPISODE 13: Jacob Tobia is a gender-nonconforming Los Angeleno who’s on a roll. Four years ago, they landed a job as an executive...
Feb 8, 20201 min read


From My Past: Obsession—John Duka, The Passion of Fashion
STORY: “One of the requisite skills for sitting at a fashion show is being able to roll your eyes, talk to the person behind you, chew...
Jan 31, 20203 min read


Voluntarily Celibate: Life as an Asexual Gay Man
STORY: Ever since I could remember, there’s always been something strange about me. When my peers were swooning over the most recent pop...
Jan 25, 20203 min read


Remembering Workouts and Worries
STORY: It was once the epicenter of the gayest neighborhood in New York City. Today, any traces of the infamous Chelsea Gym are nearly...
Jan 19, 20203 min read


BAMMER and Me: Confessions of a Male Escort turned Addiction Counselor (Part 2)
PODCAST—EPISODE 12: What do you do after you’ve been a Colt porn model, male escort, and drug addict? After kicking his drug addiction,...
Jan 13, 20201 min read


Seven Revelations of Gay Spirituality
COMMUNITY: I am starting to see an amazing, life-changing movement surfacing through what is now called the “LGBTQ movement,” although...
Jan 13, 20204 min read


Busted!
STORY: In The Fall of 1996, I was twenty years old and had just moved into my own apartment in LA. I was going to school, working full...
Jan 3, 20209 min read


BAMMER and Me: The Phluid Project and Gender-free Fashion
PODCAST—EPISODE 11: Rob Smith, the founder of The Phluid Project, talks about his journey from being a successful fashion executive to...
Dec 21, 20191 min read


BAMMER and Me: Cliff Morrison, The First AIDS Ward (Part 1)
PODCAST—EPISODE 10: Cliff Morrison arrived in San Francisco as a nurse in the late 1970s, as AIDS was about to erupt. In 1983, while...
Dec 4, 20191 min read


BAMMER and Me: Confessions of a Male Escort turned Addiction Counselor (Part 1)
PODCAST—EPISODE 9: Stu Fenton has had quite the life! In his early twenties, Stu was a Colt model and a male escort. That high life led...
Nov 13, 20191 min read


The Dead, The Living, and The Inheritance
STORY: Fall is a time of sad anniversaries for me. When I tested positive for HIV in the fall of 1988, it was hardly surprising. Many sex...
Nov 11, 20196 min read


BAMMER and Me: Life in NYC Avant Garde Theatre Scene and Stonewall
PODCAST—EPISODE 8: Mike talks with Frank Carucci, a life-long New Yorker, about working in the NYC avant-garde theatre scene, the...
Oct 30, 20191 min read
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